Living the Dream

Coloring pages after pages of quotes while making hundreds of calls of a telemarketer, I’ve had a lot of time to think lately.  One quote I colored the other day got me thinking a lot- “Don’t let your dreams be dreams”.  Honestly, coming to Utah State was a dream I didn’t know I even had but it’s been the biggest blessing in my life.  I am a totally different person.  It’s like when you are stuck on this never ending trail but you just keep going and going and then you reach the top and your breath is taken away as you look across the valley and you see what everyone is talking about.  In the last year, I’ve seen what everyone is talking about. 

FALL! Picture by the lovely Jacy Jones on a hike I wish I could of gone on if I wasn't working!

Jackson Hole!   Love everyone in this picture!

Someone I met the other day asked me why I liked Logan so much.  I actually knew how to answer!  My answer, the people.  I mean, I love the beautiful canyon, especially this time of year, the school, and even a new recent discovery, the Cache Valley Farmers Market!  But honestly, it’s the people.  Growing up, I have always been a non-stop grind.  I work, work some more, do some homework, go to meetings, make to do lists and try to check stuff off faster than I add.  I can work and work and that is how I compensate and keep my brain distracted.  But I’ve never really just had that group of people that I just felt so happy around that I only want to do things with them 24/7, we never run out of laughs or stuff to talk about, people I can pour my heart and soul to, and be laughing on the ground five minutes later.  We can go on crazy adventures to Jackson Hole, dance outside the car, watch movies, make zucchini bread, or just sit at the kitchen table and talk for hours and hours until we realize we have been sitting there for five hours and we should sleep a little before class in the morning. 

Just jumping off a cliff...:)

Especially this semester, each day, I’m finally living in the moment.  Its no longer me always stressing about tomorrow, next week, next month, next year.  It’s good to plan, but if you are always planning, you are going to miss out on everything you plan.  I can honestly say, I had to take some serious risks to get to this realization but I am finally living my dreams.  By living this, I have realized I can do with my life whatever I want, and I can do whatever it takes to get there.  And yes...this does include doing any accounting problem and an 18 hole golf tournament when I've never golfed... 

   

Each day, whether I’m taking a stressful exam or not, just got my car booted and an additional parking ticket or two, or am completely sleep deprived and sick I’m smiling and so happy.  I’m not just smiling to make other people happy or convince myself that I’m “happy”.  I really am happy.  I laugh all day long, make memories, learn, and be in the presence of people that have impacted my life more than they will ever realize.  Each day, I just am overwhelmed with how blessed I am to be this happy.  I would say its almost unreal, but that’s the thing.  Its so real! Finally!

I hope I can share this happiness with others. By making someone’s day, maybe they can have a glimpse of this happiness I am feeling.  I am so humbled to feel so happy and be surrounded by such inspiring people. So "Don't let your dreams be dreams" and remember, "You are never to old to dream a new dream" - C.S. Lewis  

"My Life is Choking"

Last year, my Korean roommate Danbi misunderstood the phrase often used, "My life is a joke".  Instead she would say..."My life is choking".  This week..."My life is choking...ALOT".  But I would have nothing to laugh about had it not been for weeks like this.  Honestly I can still say I am happier than ever, but this week that happiness was quite pricey...a few good laughs cost me about 2000 phone calls.

Wednesday.  I wake up sick.  Day quil and Ny quil become my best friends and I drink 2 gallons of liquid!  Gatorade, water, orange juice, apple juice, the works.  But alas, I am not better.  I drove to my one class because I didn't feel good. 1 parking ticket.  After 50 minutes! "Seven Layer Bean Dip" soccer game was that night and I am what you would call the "'team mom" and I was so proud of them!  They won!  The team on the sidelines would say the only pro of our team was the goaley...but hey a win is a win. The crowning event of the night.  My car is booted.  I couldn't find parking ANYWHERE within about a mile.  So I park at the Tandori Oven and plan to move my car in a couple of hours.  But no...Kelc and my car was booted.  $75 each later, after being told I can park on Main Street (are you SERIOUS!), and that in the winter they open up a wopping 8 parking spots (THANKS A LOT!), we just laugh and say, "my life is choking".

Thursday.  Crazy day, but good!  After it's all over and my class ends at 10pm we get a humidifier from my cousins and Jacy and I sleep in a sauna.  And when I say sauna...I am not kidding.  Our quote wall has become waved papers...

Friday.  I decide to go to work.  Everyone in the row is sick and I can barely speak.  But alas I make around 400 calls and get about 17 surveys completed.  My favorite response of the night..."So how much do I get paid for this?"  My response..."Sir unfortunantley you only get the satisfaction of completing the survey".  

Saturday.  I go to learn how to golf for an hour for the tournament I'm in next week and then call into work sick because I can't speak.  I discover the reason I am so sick is because I did not drink Airbourne like all of my roommates...so I will defintley be drinking that in the future!  I sleep and well create this wonderful blog.

All in all, "my life is choking".  But honestly I am still happy as ever.  I mean who couldn't be happy after beating Utah!  Living in Logan is more than great, I love the people I am around 24/7 and I could not be more blessed!